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Day 10 – Well, it’s been a slice . . .

“1 Picture of Yourself”

This is me. This was taken at the first ever Toronto NEDA Walk. My shirt was signed by my fellow fighters, with an “In Memory Of” section for those who lost their fight. Thanks for joining the my 10 Day Challenge. As always, feel free to post pics of yourself in the comment section! xo


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Day 9 – If Music Be the Food of Love, PLAY ON!!!!

“2 Songs”

Seriously?!? How am I supposed to pick just two? Ok. The first one is easy enough. If you know anything about me, or have been reading the past few days of blogs, this should come as no surprise.

1. Over the Rainbow It’s just a perfect song, and Judy does it so beautifully. I want to introduce you to another version of it that I love, by Eva Cassidy. There are few interpretations of this song I love apart from the original, and this is one of them . . . maybe the only one.

Number two is harder. I love so many songs . . . but this is a song I refer to as “my song”. I was (to the best of my knowledge) the first person in Canada to sing this song, and it’s always meant a lot to me. This video is of a very talented singer and actress (and a lovely human being) named Stephanie J. Block. For those of you “in the know” in the theatre world, she was Liza in The Boy From Oz, Grania in The Pirate Queen, Judy in 9 to 5 – The Musical, and the role of Elphaba in Wicked was written for her. This song is from a musical called Piece by a young, up-and-comer named Scott Alan. The lyrics in this video are not the finalized version, but I just love SJB’s performance here. Enjoy.

2. Neverland (Fly Away)

I also have a playlist that I will share with you at some point (when I’m low on inspiration) full of musical theatre songs that I find inspirational and to have some “ED” metaphor hidden within. Stay tuned. Get it? “Tune”d? If you don’t hate me for that comment, share some of your favorite songs in the comments.

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Day 8 – Popcorn, anyone? No?

“3 Films”

I’m glad they worded it “films”, not “movies”. It just sounds classier . . . and I’m nothing if not fucking classy. Three movies . . . as hard a task as narrowing down books. Again, I’ll do categories.

1. Favorite Classic Film: The Wizard of Oz. This also falls under the categories of “Favorite Childhood”, “Favorite Musical”, and “Favorite All-Time” to name a few. I always watched it when I was home sick from school as a child. Again, we know I love Judy, and all things Oz . . . really, it was a pretty obvious choice.

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2. Favorite Modern Film: Moulin Rouge! Such a great movie . . . the “just ok” voices of its stars make it seem more like real people just breaking into song. Such a beautiful story, and I love Baz Luhrmann’s direction. So pretty to look at!

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3. Favorite “Just Because” “Feel Good” Film: The Proposal. Sandra Bullock is one of my favorite actresses, and Ryan Reynolds is just goofy enough to make his good looks not overwhelming. The story gives me hope that someday someone will love me in spite of my bitchiness. Oh! And Betty White. Who doesn’t love Betty White?

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Hooray for movies! Second only to musicals in escapist entertainment. We know T-cat likes Lord of the Rings . . . Anyone like anything else?


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Day 7 – With Her Nose Stuck in a Book

“4 Books”

My Favorite Book Series

Oh, asking me to choose four books would be like asking Liza Minnelli to chose four sequined garments . . . there are just too many to choose from! I think I’m going to pick four categories, and pick a favorite in each . . . or at least attempt to.

1. Favorite Inspirational: Fierce Medicine by Ana Forrest – Yes, Jenni Schaefer’s books have helped me through rough spots, and The Language of Letting Go is my daily read, but Fierce Medicine is such an incredible story. Part memoir, part yoga, part surviving life, anyone can get something wonderful out of this book. It will literally change your life.

2. Favorite Childhood story: Foo by Richard Thomas – This book has always been a special one for my dad and me. It’s the story of a girl named Jesse, who blows “foo” kisses to say goodnight to people far away. We still send foo kisses to this day.

3. Favorite Fiction: The Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver – Such a good book. A commentary on religion, women, family, and how much our thoughts determine our lives.

4. Favorite Non-Fiction: Unbearable Lightness by Portia deRossi – A beautiful, raw, honest memoir of what it means to struggle with an eating disorder, and that it’s possible to one day be free.

Again, I could have picked 20 more books in each of these categories. I’m always on the lookout for a new read. Toss your favorites in the comment box if you dare!


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Day 6 – I’m Baaaack.

Still a phlegmy, greasy, probably smelly (I wouldn’t know, my nose is clogged) mess, but can string enough words together to make semi-legible sentences, so I figured I’d blog.

“5 Foods”

The dregs of my quinoa stash . . .

So I could have gone so many different ways on this one . . . 5 fear foods, 5 favorite foods, 5 anorexic staple foods (are there 5? Diet soda, vegetables, egg whites, coffee . . . air?). But I decided to take a different route. So here are

“5 Foods That Are Awesome, That I Either Re-discovered or Discovered For The First Time While Working On Recovery”

Although I understand why they didn’t put that one on the 10-day-challenge list I “borrowed”.

1. Quinoa. Such a versatile little pseudocereal. Lots of protein, and can be eaten as part of a savory meal, in place of rice or something along those lines, or as a breakfast dish, like oatmeal.

2. Oatmeal. Dear world: Steel Cut Oatmeal is so much better than anything from a box. It has SO much protein, and it’s so much more fun making your own flavors than whatever Quaker comes up with.

3. Yogurt. There is so much more to yogurt than fat-free, sugar-free, 30 calorie yogurt-like substances. The first time I tried Greek yogurt, I fully cried. I had no clue food had that much flavor.

4. Hummus. (always best when pronounced as though you are of Middle-Eastern descent) Chick peas blew my mind when they first got added to my meal plan, but that was nothing until I tried Sunflower Kitchen‘s Roasted Garlic and Onion hummus. My reaction, had there been anyone around to hear it, may have been something along the lines of “HOLY FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS AND WHY IS IT SO FUCKING AMAZING?” I had only just switched from my chick peas, lemon juice and garlic powder in a blender version to REAL hummus, and wasn’t aware I’d purchased a flavored variety. AMAZING.

5. Grilled Cheese Sandwiches. This was the most recent addition to my meal plan. Not gonna lie, kinda terrified me, but holy hell was it good. I know this, because it tasted good even though I have limited taste-ability, thanks to the stuffy nose. Note to dieters: Fat-free processed cheese slices on dry, toasted bread does not a grilled cheese make. The real kind, while shocking, is so amazing. I can’t promise it will be on my regular meal rotation (fear still edges things out sometimes), but it will definitely make regular guest appearances.

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Day 5 – Happiness isn’t a destination; it’s a manner of travel

“6 Places You Want To Go”

I talked in my last post about wanting to travel. Once money, time, and health are all in line, it’s going to happen. Here are the places I’d most like to go.

1. California. Those who know me best know I’m SO not a California girl. When I go in the sun, I turn as red as my hair. I did, however, live there my first 2 years out of high school, and I absolutely fell in love with the place. Orange County was so sunny and warm and lovely, and I lived down the street from Disneyland . . . what could be better? Plus, my bestie lives there, being a big ol’ superstar, and I miss her very much.

2. New York City. Still a big ol’ theatre nerd, even in my retirement. I’d love to see everything that ever plays on Broadway. I’ve never been there NOT in the dead of winter, so I’d like to give that a whirl. Plus, another good friend lives there, being a big ol’ superstar, and I miss him very much.

3. The British Isles, plus Scotland. This is where my people are from (duh). All I’ve ever seen of England is the airport, and while it was lovely, I’d love to see more of the place where Thomas the 1st set sail for America . . . then a Thomas further down the line moved his son Thomas (who sired my father Thomas) to Canada.

4. France. It just looks lovely, and I speak enough of the language to get by . . .

5. Germany, Austria and the Czech Republic. That’s where the aforementioned Choir Olympics took place, and I’d like to do the tour again, NOT as a 15-year-old.

6. Anywhere I can learn something new. Kind of a cop out, I know, but I pretty much want to go everywhere. There is so much to learn from different cultures and the history of different countries, and I want to see and experience as much as I can . . . The warm countries, mostly. Although I can count to 10 in Finnish . . . that could get me a little ways  . . .

That’s my story. Nothing especially angsty in this post . . . tomorrow is “5 foods” . . . I think we can all anticipate a bit of angst in that one . . . Stay tuned. (And it’s not that I don’t want to know where YOU want to travel, but I’ve had precious few comments on the last few. They’re always most welcome)

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Day 4 – I want adventure in the great wide somewhere . . .

Day 4:

“7 Wants”

Want: A Kelly Bag. Not Grace Kelly's life . . . and certainly not the man in the pic.

Wants and needs are scary things . . . they leave me feeling, well, wanting and needy. When I was trying to come up with ANY reason to commit to recovery, I wrote a list of things I wanted to be able to do (or have) that I couldn’t do (or have) while dating ED. While the list has changed (carbs, dairy and junk food are now a part of my meal plan, so therefore no longer wants . . . in fact, they’re DON’T wants a lot of the time . . . ) a lot of them are still worth mentioning.

1. A degree. In spite of spending 6 years in school, I only have a certificate and a diploma, no degree. Because my diploma is in Musical Theatre, it’s really good for nothing else. I always valued earning a degree, but a) it wasn’t necessary for a career in performance and b) there were no degree programs in musical theatre in Canada when I was in school. Having a degree leads directly into . . .

2. A career that makes a difference. I always valued that. The reason I got into theatre was because, as a child, theatre was a manner of escape for me, and I wanted to be a part of showing kids like me what a happy ending could look like. I still want to do something along those lines, just not in the theatre. I think mostly I want to be an activist, and not only show people that a better life is possible, but to help create a better future.

3. I want to own property. I thought I loved the gypsy life that goes along with a life in musical theatre, but I’m learning how much I value stability. I want to have my own place to come home to every night, where I feel safe and have some security. And it would be nice not to have to pay rent forever . . . I’ll take a mortgage over rent any day.

My childhood dog, Walter the Wheaten

4. A dog. I really want a dog. I loved having a dog, and they always make me feel better, even just while walking down the street. I want a rescue dog . . . we can make each others’ lives better. In order to have a dog, I’m gonna need at least a career and a house, because I’ll need money and somewhere I haven’t had to pay a security deposit . . .

5. I want to travel. Again, a career and money would come in handy for this one. Mostly, I need to be relaxed enough in my food etc. rituals to actually go places and eat in restaurants, in front of people, etc . . . It’ll happen someday.

6. I want better relationships all around. Because I’ve had to hide for so long, and lived in fear of abandonment, I’ve always kept people at arm’s length, and my inability to express my true emotions makes all my interactions pretty surface level. Once I don’t have my eating disorder symptoms to protect me and keep me numbed out, I hope all my relationships will improve.

7. I feel like the last one should be fun and frivolous. I want to win the lottery! If I won the lottery, I could pay my parents back for treatment, have unlimited sessions with the best therapist ever (mine), do yoga as often as I’m medically cleared to, buy property, pay tuition, travel, afford a dog, start an eating disorder charity, and afford to buy a new wardrobe every time I go up a size in this fucked up process . . . and I would buy a Kelly bag. I think I’ve mentioned before how much I need a Kelly bag.

Hey. You. What do YOU want?

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