I don’t know about you, but in recovery, if something goes wrong anywhere in my body, I immediately blame it on food. Greasy hair? Must be from the fact that I have fat in my diet now. Sweaty? Stupid food makes my body chemistry weird. Zits? Must be something I’m eating, because my skin was gloriously clear when I was sick . . . if ashen and yellow and dry.
But seriously . . . the zits were bothering me. I never really had a problem with them in my youth . . . I started a skin care regimen when I was twelve, and have maybe missed 2 nights of face-washing since then. I had a smattering of zits on my chin, nose, and forehead during puberty, but never more than 2 or 3 at a time. If you saw me the past couple of weeks, however, you’d think I had washed my face in a deep fryer. I kept checking AuthenticSelfWellness.com and searching “acne” to see which foods Margaux suggests may cause facial explosion, or what I was missing in my diet that was making me look like I was sporting the very on-trend leopard print on my face.
I played around with upping my B12 intake, reducing my almond intake (not restrictive . . . replaced with cashews), but to no avail. The zits had overtaken my freckles.
Then I got my very spotty head out of my ass, and started to consider other causes. In an effort to save money this summer, I’ve been going through that box that we all have full of products we tried and didn’t like, but couldn’t bring ourselves to throw out. I had two cleansers in there, and when the first was finished (with minimal zitting), I switched to the 2nd . . . for oily skin . . . which I do not have . . . that may or may not have made my last move with me two years ago . . .
So I bit the bullet and bought a cleanser I knew I liked once upon a time. Within two days, my face was almost completely clear again. Hmmmmmmmm.
So, while food may seem like the cause of most of the problems in an eating disordered life, sometimes you have to look to external factors to see where your problems are really coming from. Pretty good metaphor, huh? I thought so.